damnit i hate the approaching months...they are so long and boring and stupid...depressing isn;t quite the word i was looking for but its the first thing that comes to mind. anyway....i have wanted to write some good poetry lately and just can't seem to do it. its pissin me off. and i feel angry angry at everything...i haven't smiled for days. (with exception of a few for you) AHHHH! and i can live with not smiling i just get so fucking sick of everyone asking me "whats wrong" and "smile for me" annoying doesn't really describe it but its the first thing that comes to mind. and you know what else....morbid....yes morbid....that is what im going to be talking like for a min...i was watching court teevee* today and they showed a story about a woman that was stabbed with a knife 50 times with a 3 inch knife....the stab wounds were only like 1 inch deep....if you were going to kill and tourture someone wouldn't you make it worth while? if it had to be a knife wouldn't you skin them very very slowly, like one limb at a time pausing between appendages to swab it with alcohol or pepper spray it one good time and then wouldn't you cut off their fingers and toes joint by joint and stuff the ends with razorblades ...you know to keep the blood in. and right befor they did die wouldn't you stab them in the arm pit with the 3 inch knife just so they were short of breath when they took the last one. well i most certainly would any way...moving on....im officially not eating meat anymore! woo hoo.......ok thats all